I'm utterly sick of Orchard.

Been going there for goodness knows how many times already... these past few days. The last time I went there, the whole family car was caught in a jam around the orchard area for about 45 minutes trying to find a parking spot. Heck, the moment we entered an open air carpark, it took us 20 minutes to get out.

That, and also, I've been engaging in a lot of typical sc 'tai-tai' activities. That means, eating brunch and chatting. Like how british women sip tea around the garden and chat about the weather. But oh, it's so good to catch up finally with the ole' girls! At cedele, at breko in Holland Village It's as though everything was sec4 again, and it was so easy to talk to them. Sigh, for that reason alone I hold sc very close to my heart.

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Ahh, after a verry long time, I finally got to meet the counsellor again. And man, this is really serious business. I have just realised that daunting mountain of things I have to do to make this materialise. Nothing's as simple as it seems, and it'll be a long way before I can finally achieve the 'rosy-cosy' level of the youth group I have in my head. Plus, this is totally unfamiliar territory, and I'm both excited yet scared at the same time. Yeah sure, I've headed a team before but what do I know about leading a youth group? Nothing. And that means I have alot of learning to do. I know how easily discouraged I can get sometimes, but not now. Not this one... failure is not an option. If it happens, I have to try again. Becos of all the lost dreams in the world, this is one of those that are not frivolous nor impossible. And if I let it go, I know more than anything that it would be a terrible waste. I don't wanna look back and regret, becos I never tried hard enough or I never put in enough effort. Everything's a matter of how much I want it. Just like running for softball... I wanted it more than anything and that was all it took. Determination. *roll up your sleeves people it's time to make things work!*

"You know how big this can get?". Yeah I know. But there are times the gravity of things have yet to sink in... Am truly on the crest of uncertainty, but no matter, I'm thankful beyond words for the help of the counsellor. Heheh, this would be nothing without her. Without any sort of guidance.


God give me strength.