Saturday, September 25, 2010

Twitch

The mind flickers and dies
Springs to life and spins in
crazier and crazier cartwheels upon
the spongey bouncy-castle of
my purple matter

as the light flies and sparks and
cascade like rust upon the floor

The engine purrs to life,
the mathematics and the sciences
all revved and connected for
the next passable conquest
where impossible is nothing because you
were made for greater things
than this.

Recycle

Pick your favourite record
Set upon the gramaphone
Worn with overuse
The trenches etched deep
One singular storyline
Upon the surface of life

Timeless music plays
A refrain so similar
You hear it night to night
The strum of heartstrings
Pull of the bow
And waning of the moon
as it stares through your loft

Thoughts like lyrics
flotsam down the alley
choked at points too tight
Speech does no justice
They echo in silence
In the vacuum of
your God-given intellect

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?


----- "Clark Gable", The Postal Service

Today's bus trip back home after school was Heee-larious. See, we had just finished a long drawn out and mind-befuddling strategy project session... and we, or rather I, steered the conversation towards the perennial question mark of dating/love. Then we realised that if we applied business strategy tools to relationships/dating, it may actually work! Super hilarious.

In strategy, one must have a goal, powered by a strategic vision to achieve that goal, driven by tactics to achieve said strategy. Thus,

Goal >-- Strategy >-- Tactics

whereby,

Goal = Obtain Target Girl

Strategy = Increase market share in the mind of Target Girl (hahaha)

Tactics = Branding (increase awareness of your brand)


And then! I need to do a SWOT analysis of myself hahahaa.. SWOT stands for Strengths, Weaknesses, Opportunities and Threats.

And then I have to find a positioning for myself and a direction for my 'brand' using the GE matrix tool.

And then I must look towards Blue Ocean Strategy and ascertain if said target is a red or blue ocean. Red = too saturated, mature market filled with competitors. Blue = non-traditional target market, few competition.



And then! I get ....... her?




Haha... Haiz.... =/

Saturday, September 18, 2010

It's been an odd week of emotions. A couple of highs, lows. Some imagined, construed. Some maybe really true. But all through it ran a bold line of me. And it was constant. Steadily, but surely. Wavered a little, questioned itself as usual. Sometimes more faint than visible. But it was there alright. It's there.

I'm not too sure if it's still there. But I guess it has something to do with finally knowing what I want to do with my life - career-wise. Suddenly some big question marks seem answerable. Because I know if you're good, if you're passionate and driven, and you've found your niche... the money and the career will come. No matter how long it takes, it will come. And being someone who grows from experience, I know, from experience, that it will come for me. Work is essentially a simple equation. Less complicated than some equations. And thus, it's one that I can solve. Heck, we've been taught to solve problems like these all our lives. It's what I do best, what we all do best. And I'm sure all the training of all these years, plus knowing that this IS for me, will be enough to get me there.

It's nice to know that you will get somewhere one day. That you can see it coming, and even better, you know you can get there. Because past history tells you that this is one area you haven't been beaten yet. If I want it hard enough, I'll get there. Yeap.

Things might change, goals and visions might change. But for now, this is my compass and I'll travel where it points me.

Funny how work once again, tends to form my value.

So my line is a little stronger. But winds still buffet it from left to right. There is a measure of uncertainty that is discomforting. How I can see a future so strongly now, but some others are a total blank. But I guess this is something that I'd always struggle with. Like how the latest turn of events feels as though I'm walking back into history. Deja fucking vu.

Been reading the book, it has been immensely grounding so far. Who knew that accepting the fact that you are fucked up, would make you think less of how fucked up you are. Heh. That's basically the book in a nutshell. Of cos, it's so much more but I haven't gotten to those parts yet.


Yeah, you demons lying quiet beneath my bed. I know you're here to stay. But I'll take my bedfellows as they come, and know that the nightmares and thoughts are just that. Nightmares and thoughts. So just observe, and let it slide.

Meanwhile, you can stick it to the world and these thoughts and struggles, and walk to the greener grass on the other side.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Right now, this place kind of represents me in my worse moods.

So the fact that I'm writing less and less.... is a good thing?