Saturday, December 26, 2009

Merry christmas everybody!

Okay. Now that I've gotten the obligatory cheery festive greeting out of the way. Let's get down to business. Service today was a bit of a blur. Choir performed one song, which went pretty smoothly and that was a great relief lol. It was insanely crowded cos there was only one service this year. Family came for service, that was quite traumatic. I don't like it when my worlds collide, and I'm not ready to deal with this. Besides, I don't feel it's time yet.

After service, we went to HV to play board games. Had a total blast. Had a great 2nd dinner as well at the bbq. Today was nice =)

In 2 weeks, I've to start my internship. It's one more step closer to 'adult-hood' and career and more responsibilities. These things are unstoppable and impending. Maybe in a few months after more work experience I'll be more prepared for it. Yet, I feel like there are parts of me that are still in baby stages, or even dormant stages, and my life is moving ahead in clunky mismatched bits and pieces. Some stories jumping ahead of others, some ideas not even given birthed and their time is just going to pass.

I can't flip pass the chapters, I'm not meant to be. And to resort to fortune tellers to try that gimmick, just to give yourself some answers, isn't really the way to go. And anyway, I haven't liked any of the future glimpses revealed so far. Nothing seems promising. I can't second-guess life. But it's frustrating to be stuck all the same.

Some things need to be changed around here. Maybe work and its busy-ness would do wonders for me. I definitely would have a lot less time... to think, anyways. The work commute would be killer already. I guess I won't have much left to expend upon aimless thoughts. Or efforts. Then once the internship is done, I'll finally do my food course. Yays. Then it'll be the final (quite lonely since everyone else would've graduated) push to graduation. Then it's Reality with a big capital R. Tough.



I hope 2010 would be a better year. I really hope so.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I'm back from paris.

It was good to see the aunt and cousin. Good to experience a city via the locals. Great to have met up with the exchange friends as well. Surprisingly I did not overeat. Western food everyday is an overkill, and I began to crave asian food.

People tell me paris is romantic. Maybe it is. Maybe it is even more so in spring or autumn, but winter has its charm too. But I would say europe isn't for me maybe. All these old places, the cobbled stone streets, I hated walking in them cos they were so damn difficult to walk on. I don't know. But the big gleeming cities of the US appeal to me more.

It's more than the architecture of cos, it has a lot to do with the people too. The french suck. Period. Rudest race in the world. But I've had more than my fair share of kindness from New Yorkers. And yes, NYC is still my favourite city in the world. From the employee aboard the aircraft carrier, who felt enough compassion to ask on me, from the comedian in the club who was at the right place at the right time. To the random other americans I had the pleasure to meet in other cities. It makes all the difference.

I had another palm reading done. This time by my aunt who is old, wise and read many palms before. She said many things the other palm reader told me before. I guess this confirms a few things. Not surprised.




I pray that less is really more.