- The talkingcock event rocked my world. Literally. It shattered all my random expectations and brought my jaw to the floor. It would be the understatement of the year to say that it's the most awesome event of IndigNation. I've never seen so many talented people before in my life (perhaps another incident is convocation in sm u).
The whole show comprises of many prominent people talking cock. They each gave a 10 minute speech on Singapore issues/politics and all were witty, funny, humourous, self-depreciating and soul-baringly honest. One of them is actually some BIG-SHOT in sm u, professor karp al singh. ("He puts the singh in Singapore!") When he was still in the audience, I thought he looked strikingly similar, as though I have met him somewhere before. Then when he was introduced as being a prof from sm u, it was as though the lightbulb in my head lit up and I went, "Bingo!".
Sm u is so cool. An indian prof in literature is taking part in indignation. And of all the unis, he comes from mine =D You know, even though school hasn't really started and the ugliness of its hell has not really sunk in yet. I have to admit that school spirit is evident. They really know how to build love for the uni. Convocation was awesome awesome. Seeing so many people of talents and of confidence to the point of arrogance (makes you wanna become like them), just points to you that yes you've come to the right place. And if you can take the rigours of it's education, you can and will become like the individuals you see on stage. If ever... if ever I falter in sm u and wish to give up and perhaps, even question why I entered this bloody university, I must remind myself of what jere my said and the reasons why I choose to come here in the first place. That I came here not for some high-profile degree from an established university, I came here to build my character and to grow from adversity and innovation. It doesn't matter (okay it does but not so much) if my degree isn't as recognised as those of other universities. But then again, what is a degree but a piece of paper that offers you the first stepping stone to the rest of your career? It only opens the door, but everything else is up to you. And I want my uni education to have repercussions in other aspects of my life. And one day, perhaps one day, I will become as good as those speakers I see in sm u up there. F*cking awesome orators who can face the most fearsome music. I'll be like them. Not the idiot who fibbed her sm u interview by being a nervous wreck.
This is my choice, and signs seem to point positively so far. Even me and mi ndy agreed after watching that awesome convocation show... "sm u is really happening."
Heheh, and in the words of wei ya ng himself, "I love smu, and smu love me more."
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But anyway, I digress... lol as I so often do when my thoughts drift elsewhere.
I don't think I have ever laughed so hard at a public event in my life before. All the speakers at Indignation are people I really admired. Somehow I wish I had their talents, their abilities, their uncanny knack at 'working' the crowd. It was just wonderful. And since I sat on the floor right in front of them, I had the greatest view of all my idols =D. Hossa n leon g stole the show, he did a broadway rendition of a national day song and it was just.. omg. Shiok. Fantastic shit.
Even the bloggers mr bro wn and mr mi yagi was there. They were the closing act of the show. And today, I discovered that months ago, at jo hn's mom's birthday party, he's sister and her husband whom I was sitting next to and happily chatting away about New York and it's famous japanese restaurant, Nobu... are the founders of talkingcock.com. And I bloody didn't know. I was like...omg??? How ignorant and dense I was! Omg, I met such fantastic, wonderful, prominent people, and I didn't know. Gosh. The gay community never fails to amaze me with regards to social connections.
Later, we went to have supper at a mamak shop. There the sayoni girls gave me a surprise birthday celebration =DD We had this chocolate cake and I had some special durex vibrator ring thingy as my present lol! Even got a kiss from jean (and omg a kiss from nudi branch during mox last last night when she realised that it was my birthday)
I love jere my kwo k. He rocks for being such a nice boy =D
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During the cab ride home tonight, I had a nice long talk with qi an xi. And since we are both.. how shall you call it, 'fresh' to these things... I came home tonight with yet another ephiphany. Somehow, spending copious amounts of time with say oni girls with such vast and different perspectives on life, has made me do some serious pondering on my goals and direction.
And tonight, I guess the gist of what she said was, "If you aren't having fun, then there's no point doing it in the first place." I suppose that is how it truly is. If it gives me more pain than pleasure, then what's the point in living it?
Lol. I think I'm growing up...=)
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Lovers come and go, but friends stay forever. I hope and hope that I can keep this new gem of a friend I've discovered through msn. Because she comes closest to a mother teresa I've ever met. And just as an j has testified, she is worth it =)
I will make myself another life-time friend today.
And as for love, there is one singular goal in mind, and that is myself. I will build myself.. to that person I am meant to be. And never, remember never, to compromise yourself or your values or beliefs in blindness for someone else. I'm not a conventional lesbian because of my views on drinking, relationship sex etc. Never was. Never want to be. And I'll never be the kind of person people wished me to be. Becos then they'll be wishing for the wrong person and perhaps, they don't know what they are missing in someone else. Me. Don't ever conform e lsa.
Because you're worth it.
elsa | 12:40 AM
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